After my marriage, half a year later, my mother-in-law and sister got married and after their marriage a few…

After my marriage, half a year later, my mother-in-law and sister got married and after their marriage a few days later I got depressed and I suffered a lot. I decided to get rid of it through involving in education. However, at the end of my pregnancy and even after delivery about a year and a half, I got more depression and the obsession of cleanliness and impureness when entering the bathroom; I consider any drop of water I have or feel when I go to toilet or wash my hands impure, and as a consequence I wash half of my body often. Sometimes, I have a full washing. Furthermore, my face is oily and I have zits due to the effect of depression that I recently have started to wash it with soap more than once until I remove the oily substance, a matter that takes much time from me. In case I have to wash, I will spend more than an hour in washing; washing my hands so much that it cracked and hurt. All these things caused me a lot of psychological damage. I had nervousness, stress and negligence in my religious and family duties. I hate going out for a walk or for religious and social occasions and I hate to take care of my child I considered her to be the reason for this. Since I got pregnant with her, I have had a feeling of not loving her. I tried to avoid the topic of hygiene but I am very afraid that I am doing the wrong thing. Sometimes, I cannot control my nervousness and I am afraid that Allah will not respond to my supplication. I have done things to reduce this subject and I get a little better but after a while I cannot control myself and return to the starting point. I see I want to go back to what I was without thinking about these topics. My psyche is very tired, the natural person does not think all day about these topics?